Its easy to see me laughing and smiling all the time. Behind that smile, behind that happiness are constant worries about my life. Just as i thought things were getting better, i get hit right back to the ground. Im too tired to fight back though im not giving up. Where the wind blows, i'll just follow. Whats the use of planning your life but nothing goes your way? Im too tired physically and mentally to do anything. I dont know how to react to the upcoming events. Im afraid bad things will happen and the best part is, i dont even know what to do to make it right.

All i want was for the better of you. To make your life easier. A higher pay, good atmosphere, i can even pick you up and send you home. Most of all i just wanna be with you all the time. Im tired of worrying if you've eaten or not. Im tired of being angry when i see bruises on your hands/legs. Im just tried of trying to persuade you that there are better jobs out there. Its okay i'll be more understanding from now on. I shall not pester you anymore cause it seems that your happier working there. Im not trying to be sarcastic here. I dont wanna force you to do something you dont want. Im sorry for forcing you. This time its my fault. Truely it is.

I love this!